I don't deserve you.. i really don't. You're such an amazing person. You always know how to make me smile cause you don't want to see me unhappy. You always tell me that you can't stop thinking about me, that i run through you're head like every minute. When i'm sad you hold me, untill i'm not sad anymore. You always listen, to every stupid story i have to tell you. You never judge me, i can be myself around you. You're just as crazy as me. You give me everything i could ever ask for. And all the while, while you're crazy in love with me, I tell my friends that you annoy me, that i don't know what i actually feel for you. When it's just the two of us, its almost perfect. But when i'm with my friends or sitting all alone in my room, i get these doubts, i think about all the things that annoy me about you and the fact that you love me way more than i love you.. Fuck, i don't even know if i love you, i think i don't even know what love is, really.. And i hate myself, god i hate myself so much! Cause you deserve so much better.. And i wish i had the guts to say all this to you, but i can't.. jeez i'm such a pussy. I guess i have allot of thinking to do, and i guess i evantually have to tell you. Cause while you're thinking everything is perfect, i'm sitting here with my stupid messed up doubts and feelings. Still, there's one thing i know for sure and that will never change: You deserve so much better than a girl like me..

I know just how to get you mad..

A friend accepts us as we are yet helps us to be what we should.

That boy, he's hope..

Stories are as unique as the people who tell them,
And the best stories are those in which the ending is a surprise..

I never meant most of those pretty words I said,
but I wanted you to think I did.
cause telling you all this makes no difference.
its useless.
cause those who get to know our hearts the most
they always seem to be the ones well never hold.

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired.
I know, right now you don't care.
But soon enough you're gonna think of me,
And how I used to be,
Me.